Healing

How do we heal from past traumas and how do we prevent them from being recycled into present time. I can tell you that it took years and years and even today it’s still a process. You have to heal from within. You have to become one with your soul and allow yourself to scream, cry, leave, go on a trip etc. I practiced a lot of meditation, yoga and just making the time for myself that I didn’t allow myself to have. I journaled and reflected and by doing these things it gave me inner peace. Sometimes we tend to allow these things to go on because we think the situation will get better..trust me it gets worse because after all is said and done in between you build up resentment. You start to ask why do I stay and tolerate it..my guess is the fear of the unknown and while this may be true, sometimes you just need to figure it out and not use your heart. I’ve learned that the heart is the most vulnerable part in your body..while in some instances your heart is pure magic and it allows you to feel certain emotions, not everyone deserves that piece of you. Sometimes we need to branch out and as I mentioned take time to take care of you, if you dont who will. Then there’s the thought we get so hung up on taking care everyone else but in reality who takes care of you? Yes, thats a big one..let that sit for a minute. My thoughts were if I don't take care of me, how can I take care of my children and those around me if I’m not 100%. Journaling allowed me to remember not only the bad times but when things were good..it allowed me to ask why were things so good at this point..and crazy enough to say that I kept the journal until I decide it was time to leave. God I can tell you when I open it..wounds opened like salt being poured on a knee. I needed to reflect at times but it always made me feel that I had the strength, courage and that I was so much better than the situations I had put myself in. Then after I had enough I burned the journal..I decided that I no longer was the person I use to be, I grew and became healthy, had healthy relationships all because I slowly healed myself. I thought all of this time I could have had the inner peace I was looking for so much sooner. All in all it was the experience, the trauma, the sadness and the pain and to finally see light again..I felt relief, a sense that I could breathe again. I can tell you that I felt the air aspirate from my lungs..making me feel that it was okay to feel, to have hope, and the energy to go after all that was meant for me. I hope this helps..it will not work for all but this is that part of me that allowed me to come here and share. Trust me it was the hardest time getting through it because of the years, the motions, the good times, the laughter, the pain and the tears. But today, I present the best version, most vulnerable part of me ever seen before. xoxo